wOrPa WoRpA

2010-01-01T14:13:00.002+08:00

Before i start this post.
I'm gonna say,
I gotta start manage my anger well.
Sorry for all the argument i had with you, due to my uncontrollable pekcek-ness.
I'll try to improve on that.
okay. =D

HELLO 2010!!
SO LONG 2009!!
I'm gonna throw away all the bad memories i had in 2009,
as 2010 will be a very very good and sweet year for me.
Which is, with you by my side,
Like finally. =D
I'm gonna say, without a doubt I'm gonna treasure every single moment, be it had or have.

The countdown i had ytd was just superb.
But spending the night with you was more den just superb, It's PRICELESS. =))

I'm not a happy post writer,
but the happiness i had thru the night is totally indescribable by words i could think of.
All i could say is, i wish every night was like ytd. =D

2009-12-31T00:08:00.002+08:00

Hmmm.
i really hope that all the plans i plan for us could be accomplish.
but i dunno when will i be able to let the plans starts.
it seems like everything is going my way.
I'm disappointed, sad and still sad.

hope i can spend more time with you,
this is all i need.
as we're going separate ways soon.
I really hope that our bond and trust between each other is strong.
so that no one could ever tear us apart.
I really don't want my fear to conquer me again. please.
i had enough.

i hope you could show me how important i am to you.
by action and words.
it seems like you're not.
but i hope I'm wrong.

2009-12-29T09:11:00.005+08:00

Ive been very bother bout those things you said to me ytd.
Before, you ask me not to be scared.
Overcome the fear.
I believe in you.
But somehow the fear is coming back.

Now,
We have come this far.
I know you still have that fear in you.
Still questioning yourself if you can have that faith in me.
I dunno how to tell you.
But I can asure you that you can.

I really regret wat i did ytd. Haiz.

2009-12-15T11:36:00.002+08:00

Fuck you K.T
stop going back to your old self.
getting jealous all those shit.
Just fucking move on.
Bastard!!

2009-12-14T15:00:00.001+08:00

After seeing you.
Everything that happen four years ago seem so fresh.

2009-12-14T01:00:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just like to withdraw from the world and think about other stuff.

2009-12-09T11:47:00.002+08:00

Everyday seems so joyful and fun..
It almost overwrite every saddness of mine.
Happy!!
Living each and every single day with hope and happiness.
Can't wait for chiang birthday celebration this coming Saturday. =D

2009-11-25T09:07:00.000+08:00

May god care of kholiq grandpa soul..
Take care my brother.

2009-11-24T23:33:00.002+08:00

BACK LIKE LAST TIME?
FRIEND LIKE LAST TIME?
WHAT'S THIS ?
WHAT ARE WE NOW?
HI, BYE??
I FUCKING SIAN ALREADY.

I SERIOUSLY DUNNO WHAT TO DO TO BRING BACK WHAT WE ONCE HAD.
MAYBE NOW YOU CAN TELL ME HOW.

all i want now is to be like last time.
is it really that difficult?

2009-11-24T13:42:00.000+08:00

When will you be back to the way you're?
D=

2009-11-23T00:43:00.004+08:00

YOU

I know

if only i have a time machine.
it has been tough.

2009-11-19T10:42:00.000+08:00

" Sometimes we take for granted the people in our lives that mean so much and when we finally realize that, it can be too late. Take advantage of every minute you have, hold onto and cherish every second. Have no regrets and never forget those that made you who you are. "

2009-11-19T09:05:00.004+08:00

When will you be back to the way you're??
D=

2009-11-19T09:05:00.002+08:00

Met up with Fiona and Sheena ytd..
Meeting was simple yet enjoyable,
too bad jacen can't make it.
While waiting for fi, chiang and I had make alot of plans after I got my sitex pay.
First is to change all my wardrobe, 2nd dye my hair and etc.
She'll be my stylist siol, hahahahah..

But first thing first,
before all that, I gotta clear all the debt i owe for my poly mates..
Clear before spending..
Always rmb!!

Lastly thanks for the sushi and ying yang.. =D

2009-11-12T10:31:00.003+08:00

I already tried my best to bring everything back to normal..
But,
oh well nvm..
Talk to me when you're really very ready okay.. =D
Dunn force yourself to talk..
I can tell you are..

2009-11-10T23:16:00.002+08:00

Am trying very hard to make everything back to normal.
Cant you see??
It looks like everything change totally..
seriously changed..
from the reflection i saw from the door, when you and him there..
haiz.........
FUCK MY LIFE!!
ignorance ignorance ignorance!!
stranger stranger stranger!!
fuck it man..
i hate this..fuck..
is it so hard to make everything back to how it suppose to be??

2009-11-09T23:28:00.003+08:00

MET UP WITH ANN ANG TODAY!!
SHE WAS HAVING CRAVING FOR MACPHERSON PRAWN MEE,
SO SHE PM-ED ME..
ME,
AS A PRAWN MEE MANIAC, HOW COULD I RESIST RIGHT ??
HAHA..
SO SHE PICKED ME UP WITH HER CAR,
CHIT CHAT CHIT CHAT..
BUT TO OUR DISAPPOINTMENT, IT WAS CLOSE!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE PRAWN MEE FOR US!!
SADDED.. =(
SO NVM,
NEXT STOP WILL BE THOMSON BCM!!
WOOHOO!! ITS OPEN YO!!
SO WE SETTLE DOWN AND FILL UP OUR HUNGRY HUNGRY STOMACH..
HEHE.. THUMBS UP!! =DD
ALTHOUGH THE MEETING WAS SHORT,
BUT WE REALLY ENJOY THE TIME CHIT CHATTING AND EATING..
WONDERING WHEN WILL BE OUR NEXT MEETING..
COULD BE MONTHS LATER.. HAHAH..
ANYWAY, GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR SUBMISSION AND PRESENTATION!! =D=D

Am glad that you're happy today.. please be like this everyday..
从今天开始，我将会每天带着面具面对你.
不管我用了多少张面具,
只要你开心，我愿意自己一个人受苦.

2009-11-08T17:41:00.002+08:00

Trust me,
You're not the only one who's suffering on this "no choice" choice.
Me too.
But mine is different from yours,
Its much more pain-er then you could think of.
Way much.
At least now you still got that someone who always stick to you to make you feel better.. hur hur..
Me?
All alone.

='(

2009-11-07T13:03:00.005+08:00

What i fear the most has already happen..
From the closeness we had during the holidays to the sudden change of coldness when school start..
From the time we spend tgh every time to the time we start avoiding each other,
From the daily msges and phone calls to the ignorance of each existence..
From the real moments we once had to the moment we have to put a mask to face each other..
This is pathetic..

You wont be happy,
Emptiness will still be there,
No one could captivate that heart of yours,
Unless you really know what you want and let it happen..
Unless you already got that somebody to do that for you..

On the other hand,
i guess you both are on the verge of patching back..

2009-11-07T11:46:00.001+08:00

Chances are when said and done
Who'll be the lucky ones
Who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever
No matter how it feels today

Chances are we´ll find a new equation
Chances roll away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don't get me wrong I'd never say never
Cause though love can change the weather
No act of God can pull me away from you

I´m just a realistic man
A bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to love beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I see us through yeah

Chances are we´ll find two destinations
Chances roll away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
The possibilities
Over me
Eight to five, two to one
Lay your money on the sun
until you crash what have you done?
Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you breathe
You gotta cry before you sing

Chances chances

Chances lost are hopes torn up pages
Maybe this time
Chances are we´ll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see
Chances are the fascination
Chances won't escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need

2009-11-05T10:56:00.002+08:00

Nowadays, when I look at the both of you,
I feel so so so so,
It's so indescribable
The way he get close to you,
and the way you replied to him..
It's like you two Have already got back tgh again..
The distance between us has driven far far away..
I dunn even have the chance to do wat he always did to you,
treat you nice, sit next to each other, go brk with just you and me..
From the way he stick to you..
It's way too hard for me to do all that to you, too hard..
The only time and moment I can cherish with you the most,
would be the time I refill water with you,
when I sit with you outside the lab talking..
Or maybe lucky enough you would accompany me to buy food..
All these would be be the only time I could think of spending with you alone..
Sad to say, I really wanted to do all that to you,
but........................ The situation is making it impossible..
Haiz..

2009-11-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

I guess wat I did earlier on in school really dissapoint you and make you mad to the max..
I'm already sorry and regret on doing that..
But I'm trying to change it now,
trying nt pissed you off and all, but I guess it's too late..
Frm the reply and tone you gave me in the msges..
I can tell you're totally treating me diff.. Cold..
I guess I couldn't amend it anymore..
Hope you're happy being this way ba..
Lastly, I'm sorry for wat Ive done..

2009-11-01T15:15:00.001+08:00

2009-10-30T16:02:00.001+08:00

Things that I always wanted to help or acc..
Always get done by others...
Haiz.......

2009-10-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I GOTTA BUY BEDDING AND SAND FOR MY TWO HAMSY ASAP!!
I DUNN WAN ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO THEM ANYMORE!!
I TEARS FOR THE ONE WHICH LEFT ME SO EARLY!!
I MUST NOT LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN..NVR!!
I THINK I GONNA BUY TMR!!!
LOVE YOU HAMSY!! =DDD

2009-10-26T21:17:00.006+08:00

URGGGGHHHHH HAIZ!!
i can only use two wrds to describe about today, FUCK UP!!
never knew that i will be suffering so much facing you..
so much that i dunn even have the courage to face you anymore..
with that mask i wore today, its seriously urrghhhhh..hurting..
i seriously dunn feel like doing all that..
it make me tears..

how i wish i could follow you just now,
but i cant..
i hafta force myself not to,
if i do go, jealously will once come again..
but by looking at you thru the reflection of the train glass window before i go,
it actually make me feel at least better for today..
hope you're safely home later..do take care for today..

haiz..
read ur post..
does it mean that i dunn really have that chance??
not at all??
not even abit of TIME to prove myself??
all we can is remain as friend??
if so, it will seriously take years to be done..

2009-10-25T19:49:00.004+08:00

SORRY!!
I NVR KNEW I WILL BE SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH YOU..
TO THE EXTEND THAT I CANT EVEN SAVE MYSELF FROM..
in order not to let you suffer from all the stupid things i've done..
IT HURTS!!
but i have got no choice but to do this..
i just dunn wan you to be unhappy, the greatest thing in the world is see you smile..
so please smile from now on..
i'll rmb all the stupid things, all the outing and esp all the retarded argument we had..
those are the things i can take away from you,
nothing else..
but i still hope, one day, just one day..i will be able to be with you..
but i know, its only a hope..

although i wont have a chance to prove myself and to prove you wrong,
walk thru with you out of that box of yours,
knowing you stuck with that time thingy and self-protecting mindset,
refusing to give a chance to yourself..
i hope one day, you will realise that being like this is totally no use..
u need a helping hand..

i guess i will take years to seriously forget bout you..
i dunno when, but it will be more then the years i've fallen for you..

2009-10-25T15:56:00.003+08:00

3 mins for a person to be bad.
3 years or more for a person to change from bad to good.
3 years of falling in love, how long can i take to forget??

2009-10-24T14:03:00.005+08:00

after 5 days of sch, i realise and found out alot of things i shouldn't be realising or known,
i guess for now, i hafta step backward and take a look at a bigger picture..
i gotta stop what i've been focusing on so far..
i just needa be alone for now.
there's a chinese say " 船到桥头自然直 " ..
i hope so ba..
for now, i gotta put a stop in everything, its the best i could do now..
its hard, but i gotta try..
and lastly i gotta say srry to all my friends and thanks for being there when i needa yall..
=D

and i wonder if you ever did b4, like i do..

2009-10-24T00:50:00.001+08:00

FULL STOP.

2009-10-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

" I guess everyone has their reasons for keeping people away; an instinct to protect yourself from getting hurt. It’s part of human nature. "

2009-10-20T22:20:00.003+08:00

i hate to be in this shoe of mine,
Really hope that no one else will ever be in my shoe,
And feel the way im feeling now..

To those guys who are chasing their true one,
pls love them like u nvr love anyone else before..
Even if you you've got them,
dunn jus love them, or say " i love you "
Love them more den before, show them they can totally depend on you..
show them that they are totally protected..
show them that you'll always be there when they needed you..
and pls pls pls dunn ever lie..

" It didn’t make you noble to step away from something that wasnt working, even if you thought you were the reason for the malfunction. Especially then. It just made you a quitter. Because if you were the problem, chances were you could also be the solution. The only way to find out was to take another shot. "

- eletheowl

2009-10-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

haiz..
i know i asked too much for today..
sorry..

2009-10-18T20:36:00.001+08:00

" Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think of us in return."

—	One Tree Hill

2009-10-18T05:36:00.004+08:00

YESHA..
FINALLY DONE WITH THE SONG!!

It's called

You and I

I'm lost, I'm trap with this painted masquerade.
Drowning myself with controversy.
Trapped in the past i cant escape,
Cursing my life for being this way,
Not knowing when a new chapter would begin.

Just when i being to give up hope,
A light shone through the darkness in the sky.
When our eyes first met,
The chemistry is undeniable.
Many potentials came by my life, only one caught my eyes.
It wasn't beauty but i felt she was meant for me.

Cause You and I both
Treasuring the time we always have
Cause You and I both
Bringing happiness to both of our lives
this time I'll never let you go

Then,
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you.
Missing the chance of two,
Salvaging the unbearable distance between us.
Seeing the happiness in your eyes, I cried.

Cause You and I both
Treasuring the time we always have
Cause You and I both
Bringing happiness to both of our lives
this time I'll never let you go

Now,
Seems like you're afraid to fight,
Believing its only the matter of time.
Open the door to your heart,
I'll give my all to make you smile.
Please lend me you trust, and let me make you mine.

Cause You and I both
Treasuring the time we always have
Cause You and I both
Bringing happiness to both of our lives
this time I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
never let you go

This song is written for you,
cause i wanna let you noe that you wont be suffering alone,
cause there will always be someone right there for you that you can rely on..
and cause from tmr onwards, it might not be the same as before le ba..
This song,
it's about how i met you,
how you brought a life to my life,
how i tahan with the 2 regrets i have make,
how bad i wanna hold you and never let go,
how bad i wan for that chance of your's..
i hope that this song is not zzzzz in a way for you..
but hoping that one day i could sing it for you..

2009-10-17T19:22:00.001+08:00

Im nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

2009-10-17T03:17:00.001+08:00

i wish i could show you mine..

2009-10-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

" You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love her because you don’t destroy people you love. "

- eletheowl

2009-10-15T03:03:00.004+08:00

urghhhhh...
i seriously wanna kill myself..kill my fucking self !!!
if i have a time machine, i would went back 3 years ago when i first saw you and make you mine..
instead of regreting twice and suffering now!!
and seeing you so scare and afraid really hurts me..
i fucking hate this..
i know how you feel..
all i need is the chance to fucking prove u wrg..this is the only one thing i ever wanna expect from you..ever..
i wanna heal you, give you a push, and show to you that my faithful-ness is not just for the begining..
please dunn see me as who you think i would be..
im seriously mean wat i wanna do..haiz..

2009-10-15T02:28:00.001+08:00

2009-10-15T01:26:00.002+08:00

" Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart. "

- The Notebook

Maybe im not as worth as them for you to give smth in return ba..

But oh well, in my whole life, i nvr get anything in return from wat i did..
not the first time anyway, so just let it be in the way it is now..
as long you're happy with it, i will try to be happy..

2009-10-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

" So how does it happen, great love? Nobody knows, but what I can tell you is that it happens in the blink of an eye. One moment you’re enjoying your life, and the next you’re wondering how you ever lived without them. "

—

Hitch

2009-10-15T00:02:00.001+08:00

I SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A BORING PERSON...

2009-10-14T13:10:00.001+08:00

2009-10-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

" There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever "

- via eletheowl

2009-10-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

2009-10-13T20:11:00.001+08:00

" Life’s funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard, like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back "

—	One Tree Hill

(via eletheowl)

2009-10-13T17:19:00.000+08:00

- eletheowl

2009-10-13T12:41:00.003+08:00

I dunno whats wrong with my heart..
i couldn't get myself to fall asleep..
i cant stop thinking about whats gonna happen from 19oct onwards,
im so scare and afraid,
scare that we might not be able to see each other often,
afraid that i might lose contact with you..slowly..
or maybe you will treat me as stranger..
why cant holiday be longer or maybe forever..haiz..

2009-10-13T12:39:00.001+08:00

" A boy and girl can be just friends, but eventually one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever "

2009-10-12T23:20:00.001+08:00

THIS IS FOR YOU..
=)

" If you hold back feelings because you’re afraid of getting hurt, you end up hurting anyway. "

-via ohwafah

2009-10-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!
I CANT WAIT FOR THAT DAY SIOL!!!
HAHAHAHHA!!

2009-10-12T13:44:00.000+08:00

" Liking you hurts me so much because I have to pretend that I don't "

-eletheowl

2009-10-12T12:45:00.001+08:00

" Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding. But there’s also the chance that the person you can count on for a lifetime, the person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along "

—	Bride Wars

2009-10-12T02:15:00.001+08:00

2009-10-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

" Sometimes there are just some people who you never get over "

2009-10-11T15:50:00.000+08:00

" To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent of looking down at the bottom. You don’t care if it’s going to hurt like hell when you hit the bottom. All you care about is that for just that short period of time, you felt like you could fly "

2009-10-11T14:52:00.001+08:00

2009-10-10T15:59:00.002+08:00

I was very much affected by your post..
it hurts, badly..
all i wanted is something that you have given to them before when they ask for it..
and not something you force youself to do..

2009-10-10T14:49:00.001+08:00

2009-10-10T13:48:00.002+08:00

Will They ??
I WONDER....

2009-10-10T12:08:00.001+08:00

2009-10-10T02:22:00.000+08:00

UNDERSTAND!! =))))

2009-10-10T01:43:00.001+08:00

" Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way. Because without it, I don’t know; maybe we just wouldn’t feel real. What’s that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop "

—	Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy)

" I have this spot in my heart where I hold everything I’ve ever felt from you. Pain, joy, tears, laughter, jealousy, utter dependence – everything. It may be concealed under new memories, joys, and loves, but there’s no doubt it’s there. "

2009-10-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

What have i done??
i jus wanna heal and accompany you out of that box..
just wanna give u a push and that confident you needed..
just these simple things..
haiz..maybe you really treat me the same as those you see in them ba..
too bad for me, i just hafta bear with it..

2009-10-09T22:16:00.002+08:00

You,
Choose not to believe in me..
Scare that it's another lie..
Protect yourselves from being pierce from all the thorns and needles..
Put up a shield that can never be pierce thru, even with a purest heart..

Never knew that on the other side,

I,
Choose to believe and have faith in you..
Never put up a lie just to blind you..
Hurts everytime you said those..

I really know what i'm doing,
and i knew wat im going for, long before you know..
so please, dunn ever doubt me..
as i do.

2009-10-09T00:56:00.005+08:00

haiz..
wanted to accompany you since you will be alone..
but too bad, u ask me not..
wanted to ask u again, but scare that i might annoy u again..but take care when you are there..

haiz..dunno why i feel so jealous and sian now..haiz..
dunn keep saying friend friend friend pls..
i dunn like it at all..lol..
this is why i so sian..

2009-10-09T00:34:00.001+08:00

2009-10-08T17:44:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH!!!!!
MY CHEST IS FUCKING KILLING ME THESE FEW DAYS!!
TODAY ITS WORST!!!
IF THIS CONTINUE, I SCARE I CANNOT TAHAN AND COLLAPSE!!
FUCK!!!

AND IM STARTING TO HATE MYSELF!!
ITS SUCK TO BE ME!!
THE SENSITIVE ME SUCK!!!!!
FUCK MY LIFE!!
PLS CHANGE K.T!!

2009-10-08T17:08:00.001+08:00

2009-10-08T13:21:00.002+08:00

I dunno why, but i got the feel of writing this straight after i woke up..

dunno what is wrong with my brain..

dreamt of you thrice, erm all different dreams..

and each dream i woke up once,

and when i slept back i will dream of you again..

and each time i woke up, i got the urge of texting you that 3 words..

But too bad..i cant, its impossible for me to do that..

2009-10-08T02:18:00.001+08:00

2009-10-07T22:00:00.001+08:00

" I don't have to be your first love, but i do want to be your true one "

2009-10-06T21:00:00.001+08:00

" TWO IS ALWAYS BETTER DEN ONE "

TRUST ME!!

2009-10-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

TRUST ME PLEASE...
I WONT LET WATEVER YOU'VE BEEN THRU HAPPEN TO YOU AGAIN..
YOU'RE THE ONE I＇VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG IN MY LIFE!!
HAVE CONFIDENT IN THIS..
TRUST ME, YOU WONT REGRET.. €=
I WILL KEEP THIS FOREVER!!
I WONT LET IT BE GONE..
PLEASE!!

2009-10-06T01:32:00.005+08:00

you've already got me coming undone..

I wonder will i have the chances??

Chance to take care of you for the rest of my life..
Chance to prove to you that what you've being looking for is actually here by your side, always..
Chance to build all the dreams you ever wanted together..
Chance to give you a sense of security that you hope for..
Chance to hold your hand and never let go..
Chance to give you a shoulder to cry on and a warm hug when you're sad..
Chance to wipe away your tears with all my lame jokes..
Chance to give you a very good pair of listening ears to hear all your complains..
Chance to cuddles you in my arms to watch sunset and sunrise together always..
Chance to make you believe in me..
Chance to not hurt your heart but make it stronger everyday..
Chance to make you fall in love everyday..
Chance to make you smile like you always have, but brighter and sweeter..
Chance to never let you be alone, never ever..
Chance to understand you more and more..
Chance to give you late nights..
Chance to plant a goodnight kiss while you're asleep..
Chance to lock you in my heart forever..
MORE IMPORTANTLY A CHANCE TO WRITE A LOVE STORY OF OUR OWN..

All i need now is a chance, just a chance to start and accomplished all these chances with you one by one..
even if the chance you give is gonna be 0.00000000000000000000001%, i will never fail you..
All these are from the bottom of my heart..

How i wish you will visit my blog and read every post that i have posted for you..
But will you have the patient and the time and the heart to read every of it??
How i wish that my sincerity will make you realise I'm sincere..
HOW I WISH YOU COULD ACCEPT ME TO BE PART OF YOU..
well wishes are wishes, but every night i will pray for it to come true..
I HOPE SOMEDAY THAT ALL MY WISHES WILL COME TRUE..

I hope, I wish and i pray that someday you will text me a simple msg and say, i do =#..

2009-10-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

2009-10-05T20:56:00.002+08:00

HAIZ...
I SUDDENLY FEEL DAM SCARE, REALLY DAM SCARE..
IM TOO AFRAID TO LET IT ALL OUT..
IM SCARE THAT THIS IS ONLY A DREAM, IF IT IS I REALLY DUNN WAN IT TO STOP!!
IM AFRAID THAT WHEN IM AWAKE, EVERYTHING WILL BE GONE!!
AND I DUNN WAN ALL THIS TO HAPPEN!!
ITS LIKE A PHOBIA TO ME NOW!!

2009-10-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
Cause You're My Everything

2009-10-05T17:37:00.002+08:00

" I knew what love was supposed to be: obsession with undertones of nausea"

" 愛是不是不開口才珍貴 "

2009-10-05T02:11:00.000+08:00

AGAIN!!!

2009-10-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

AHHHHH!!! OMG!!
I REALISE MY FEELING FOR YOU HAS BECOME EVEN DEEPER!!

2009-10-05T00:45:00.002+08:00

Haiz..i found a letter accidentally which was send from my aunt from msia to my dad..
after reading the three pages long letter,
i found out theres smth happening between my aunt and my grandma..
lasted for fucking 3 mths,
that time i went back and they still acted like nth happen..
i dunn wish all these to happen, i wan all of it to stop!!
so much of a happy family,
in the end, its all...................... haiz..

2009-10-04T15:18:00.001+08:00

2009-10-04T02:59:00.002+08:00

No more arguing please!! haiz..

it really hurts..haiz..

2009-10-04T02:18:00.002+08:00

2009-10-04T02:11:00.003+08:00

" And I hope that someday we could talk and forget that time ever drew distance between us. We could make a bridge out of words, as fragile as it might be, the awkward pauses and incomprehensible mumbling, twisting, and twining into some stronger foothold. Someday, I might reach you and redeem myself. But I wouldn’t count on it anytime soon "

I wish, i hope and i pray.. =[

2009-10-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

this is cool..

2009-10-02T13:53:00.001+08:00

" I just want to get inside your head, so I can see how you feel about me. It’s all I wonder about lately. All I want to know is what you see "

2009-10-02T01:49:00.001+08:00

" I wish I could give you what you’re looking for, but I don’t know what it is. There’s a part of you that you keep closed off from everyone, including me. It’s as if your mind is on someone else "

2009-10-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

I want you to know that I love you. I never did stop, not for one gasping second. My love for you is unconditional, and it will never end as long as I live. I refuse to find another when I have the one I want. I never doubted us, but you did. I never stopped thinking about you, even though you stopped thinking about me. I never wanted to let go, but you did "

2009-10-01T01:06:00.001+08:00

" Sometimes there is nothing to be said. Sometimes nothing should be said. You just want to find someone who won’t run away. Someone to look you in the eyes and tell you it’s okay that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy. Today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better "

" When the world is not enough, come back to me. When your dreams have lost their touch, come back to me. When you’re tired of chasing rainbows, that never do end and nothing in this world is good enough, just come back to me again "

2009-10-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

Cheer Up..
Be strong.. You can do it..

2009-09-30T15:19:00.001+08:00

" I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to hug you, I have the ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that’s aching to see you smile again "

2009-09-29T12:01:00.000+08:00

" Take all the time you need to heal emotionally. Moving on doesn’t take a day; it takes lots of little steps to be able to break free of your broken self "

2009-09-28T12:04:00.001+08:00

DAM!!

i dunno how to appeal for my fail module for fyp!!!
shall head down to sch later..

" I’m not good at expressing how I feel. It takes a lot for me to be honest. I don’t fall for people easily, and I keep my heart guarded. But if I could ever fall in love, I think it’d be with you "

2009-09-28T02:10:00.001+08:00

I LOVE THIS QUOTE

" If I could give everyone one piece of love advice, it would be once you find the one you’ve spent your whole lifetime searching for, don’t give them up without a fight. Never let them just walk right out of your life. Whatever you do, don’t ever let them, go. Hold onto them with all that you’ve got, because you have no guarantee that they’ll be back. So, don’t make the mistake. Don’t just watch them leave. It could be the last you ever see them. Don’t look back on it and regret not saying the words you needed to say, or doing the things you needed to do. Because that feeling of regret will never leave you. "

2009-09-27T17:57:00.001+08:00

" Basically, I wish that you loved me. I wish that you needed me. I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three. I wish that without me your heart would break. I wish that without me you’d be spending the rest of your nights awake. I wish that without me you couldn’t eat. I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep "

2009-09-27T17:42:00.001+08:00

" sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold onto something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out, and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain "

2009-09-26T18:54:00.001+08:00

" I know it hurts. I know that. But if you give up now, you may be missing something greater than you could have ever imagined. And no one wants to miss something like that. Something that could change their life forever. Just keep holding on, and I promise it will get better "

" I have never been strong enough to stay. People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn’t. staying, even when you know it will break your heart, is the hardest thing. Staying right where you are, waiting for your entire world to be ripped into pieces is much harder than walking away and starting a new one "