MONSTER

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain

When you depart from me sorrow abides, and happiness takes his leave

Friday, October 30, 2009, 4:02 PM

Things that I always wanted to help or acc..
Always get done by others...
Haiz.......

Tuesday, October 27, 2009, 10:59 PM

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I GOTTA BUY BEDDING AND SAND FOR MY TWO HAMSY ASAP!!
I DUNN WAN ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO THEM ANYMORE!!
I TEARS FOR THE ONE WHICH LEFT ME SO EARLY!!
I MUST NOT LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN..NVR!!
I THINK I GONNA BUY TMR!!!
LOVE YOU HAMSY!! =DDD

Monday, October 26, 2009, 9:17 PM

URGGGGHHHHH HAIZ!!
i can only use two wrds to describe about today, FUCK UP!!
never knew that i will be suffering so much facing you..
so much that i dunn even have the courage to face you anymore..
with that mask i wore today, its seriously urrghhhhh..hurting..
i seriously dunn feel like doing all that..
it make me tears..

how i wish i could follow you just now,
but i cant..
i hafta force myself not to,
if i do go, jealously will once come again..
but by looking at you thru the reflection of the train glass window before i go,
it actually make me feel at least better for today..
hope you're safely home later..do take care for today..

haiz..
read ur post..
does it mean that i dunn really have that chance??
not at all??
not even abit of TIME to prove myself??
all we can is remain as friend??
if so, it will seriously take years to be done..

Sunday, October 25, 2009, 7:49 PM

SORRY!!
I NVR KNEW I WILL BE SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH YOU..
TO THE EXTEND THAT I CANT EVEN SAVE MYSELF FROM..
in order not to let you suffer from all the stupid things i've done..
IT HURTS!!
but i have got no choice but to do this..
i just dunn wan you to be unhappy, the greatest thing in the world is see you smile..
so please smile from now on..
i'll rmb all the stupid things, all the outing and esp all the retarded argument we had..
those are the things i can take away from you,
nothing else..
but i still hope, one day, just one day..i will be able to be with you..
but i know, its only a hope..

although i wont have a chance to prove myself and to prove you wrong,
walk thru with you out of that box of yours,
knowing you stuck with that time thingy and self-protecting mindset,
refusing to give a chance to yourself..
i hope one day, you will realise that being like this is totally no use..
u need a helping hand..

i guess i will take years to seriously forget bout you..
i dunno when, but it will be more then the years i've fallen for you..

3:56 PM

3 mins for a person to be bad.
3 years or more for a person to change from bad to good.
3 years of falling in love, how long can i take to forget??

Saturday, October 24, 2009, 2:03 PM

after 5 days of sch, i realise and found out alot of things i shouldn't be realising or known,
i guess for now, i hafta step backward and take a look at a bigger picture..
i gotta stop what i've been focusing on so far..
i just needa be alone for now.
there's a chinese say " 船到桥头自然直 " ..
i hope so ba..
for now, i gotta put a stop in everything, its the best i could do now..
its hard, but i gotta try..
and lastly i gotta say srry to all my friends and thanks for being there when i needa yall..
=D

and i wonder if you ever did b4, like i do..

12:50 AM

FULL STOP.

Friday, October 23, 2009, 1:07 AM

" I guess everyone has their reasons for keeping people away; an instinct to protect yourself from getting hurt. It’s part of human nature. "

Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 10:20 PM

i hate to be in this shoe of mine,
Really hope that no one else will ever be in my shoe,
And feel the way im feeling now..

To those guys who are chasing their true one,
pls love them like u nvr love anyone else before..
Even if you you've got them,
dunn jus love them, or say " i love you "
Love them more den before, show them they can totally depend on you..
show them that they are totally protected..
show them that you'll always be there when they needed you..
and pls pls pls dunn ever lie..

" It didn’t make you noble to step away from something that wasnt working, even if you thought you were the reason for the malfunction. Especially then. It just made you a quitter. Because if you were the problem, chances were you could also be the solution. The only way to find out was to take another shot. "

- eletheowl

Monday, October 19, 2009, 11:40 PM

haiz..
i know i asked too much for today..
sorry..

Sunday, October 18, 2009, 8:36 PM

" Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think of us in return."

—	One Tree Hill

5:36 AM

YESHA..
FINALLY DONE WITH THE SONG!!

It's called

You and I

I'm lost, I'm trap with this painted masquerade.
Drowning myself with controversy.
Trapped in the past i cant escape,
Cursing my life for being this way,
Not knowing when a new chapter would begin.

Just when i being to give up hope,
A light shone through the darkness in the sky.
When our eyes first met,
The chemistry is undeniable.
Many potentials came by my life, only one caught my eyes.
It wasn't beauty but i felt she was meant for me.

Cause You and I both
Treasuring the time we always have
Cause You and I both
Bringing happiness to both of our lives
this time I'll never let you go

Then,
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you.
Missing the chance of two,
Salvaging the unbearable distance between us.
Seeing the happiness in your eyes, I cried.

Cause You and I both
Treasuring the time we always have
Cause You and I both
Bringing happiness to both of our lives
this time I'll never let you go

Now,
Seems like you're afraid to fight,
Believing its only the matter of time.
Open the door to your heart,
I'll give my all to make you smile.
Please lend me you trust, and let me make you mine.

Cause You and I both
Treasuring the time we always have
Cause You and I both
Bringing happiness to both of our lives
this time I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
never let you go

This song is written for you,
cause i wanna let you noe that you wont be suffering alone,
cause there will always be someone right there for you that you can rely on..
and cause from tmr onwards, it might not be the same as before le ba..
This song,
it's about how i met you,
how you brought a life to my life,
how i tahan with the 2 regrets i have make,
how bad i wanna hold you and never let go,
how bad i wan for that chance of your's..
i hope that this song is not zzzzz in a way for you..
but hoping that one day i could sing it for you..

Saturday, October 17, 2009, 7:22 PM

Im nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

3:17 AM

i wish i could show you mine..

Friday, October 16, 2009, 1:36 PM

" You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love her because you don’t destroy people you love. "

- eletheowl

Thursday, October 15, 2009, 3:03 AM

urghhhhh...
i seriously wanna kill myself..kill my fucking self !!!
if i have a time machine, i would went back 3 years ago when i first saw you and make you mine..
instead of regreting twice and suffering now!!
and seeing you so scare and afraid really hurts me..
i fucking hate this..
i know how you feel..
all i need is the chance to fucking prove u wrg..this is the only one thing i ever wanna expect from you..ever..
i wanna heal you, give you a push, and show to you that my faithful-ness is not just for the begining..
please dunn see me as who you think i would be..
im seriously mean wat i wanna do..haiz..

2:28 AM

1:26 AM

" Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart. "

- The Notebook

Maybe im not as worth as them for you to give smth in return ba..

But oh well, in my whole life, i nvr get anything in return from wat i did..
not the first time anyway, so just let it be in the way it is now..
as long you're happy with it, i will try to be happy..

12:37 AM

" So how does it happen, great love? Nobody knows, but what I can tell you is that it happens in the blink of an eye. One moment you’re enjoying your life, and the next you’re wondering how you ever lived without them. "

—

Hitch

12:02 AM

I SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A BORING PERSON...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009, 1:10 PM

1:08 AM

" There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever "

- via eletheowl

Tuesday, October 13, 2009, 11:29 PM

8:11 PM

" Life’s funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard, like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back "

—	One Tree Hill

(via eletheowl)

5:19 PM

- eletheowl

12:41 PM

I dunno whats wrong with my heart..
i couldn't get myself to fall asleep..
i cant stop thinking about whats gonna happen from 19oct onwards,
im so scare and afraid,
scare that we might not be able to see each other often,
afraid that i might lose contact with you..slowly..
or maybe you will treat me as stranger..
why cant holiday be longer or maybe forever..haiz..

12:39 PM

" A boy and girl can be just friends, but eventually one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever "

Monday, October 12, 2009, 11:20 PM

THIS IS FOR YOU..
=)

" If you hold back feelings because you’re afraid of getting hurt, you end up hurting anyway. "

-via ohwafah

2:06 PM

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!
I CANT WAIT FOR THAT DAY SIOL!!!
HAHAHAHHA!!

1:44 PM

" Liking you hurts me so much because I have to pretend that I don't "

-eletheowl

12:45 PM

" Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding. But there’s also the chance that the person you can count on for a lifetime, the person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along "

—	Bride Wars

2:15 AM

Sunday, October 11, 2009, 10:00 PM

" Sometimes there are just some people who you never get over "

3:50 PM

" To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent of looking down at the bottom. You don’t care if it’s going to hurt like hell when you hit the bottom. All you care about is that for just that short period of time, you felt like you could fly "

2:52 PM

Saturday, October 10, 2009, 3:59 PM

I was very much affected by your post..
it hurts, badly..
all i wanted is something that you have given to them before when they ask for it..
and not something you force youself to do..

2:49 PM

1:48 PM

I hope so because that would mean you’re thinking of me all the time :)

Will They ??
I WONDER....

12:08 PM

2:22 AM

UNDERSTAND!! =))))

1:43 AM

" Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way. Because without it, I don’t know; maybe we just wouldn’t feel real. What’s that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop "

—	Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy)

" I have this spot in my heart where I hold everything I’ve ever felt from you. Pain, joy, tears, laughter, jealousy, utter dependence – everything. It may be concealed under new memories, joys, and loves, but there’s no doubt it’s there. "

Friday, October 9, 2009, 11:53 PM

What have i done??
i jus wanna heal and accompany you out of that box..
just wanna give u a push and that confident you needed..
just these simple things..
haiz..maybe you really treat me the same as those you see in them ba..
too bad for me, i just hafta bear with it..

10:16 PM

You,
Choose not to believe in me..
Scare that it's another lie..
Protect yourselves from being pierce from all the thorns and needles..
Put up a shield that can never be pierce thru, even with a purest heart..

Never knew that on the other side,

I,
Choose to believe and have faith in you..
Never put up a lie just to blind you..
Hurts everytime you said those..

I really know what i'm doing,
and i knew wat im going for, long before you know..
so please, dunn ever doubt me..
as i do.

12:56 AM

haiz..
wanted to accompany you since you will be alone..
but too bad, u ask me not..
wanted to ask u again, but scare that i might annoy u again..but take care when you are there..

haiz..dunno why i feel so jealous and sian now..haiz..
dunn keep saying friend friend friend pls..
i dunn like it at all..lol..
this is why i so sian..

12:34 AM

Thursday, October 8, 2009, 5:44 PM

AHHHHH!!!!!
MY CHEST IS FUCKING KILLING ME THESE FEW DAYS!!
TODAY ITS WORST!!!
IF THIS CONTINUE, I SCARE I CANNOT TAHAN AND COLLAPSE!!
FUCK!!!

AND IM STARTING TO HATE MYSELF!!
ITS SUCK TO BE ME!!
THE SENSITIVE ME SUCK!!!!!
FUCK MY LIFE!!
PLS CHANGE K.T!!

5:08 PM

1:21 PM

I dunno why, but i got the feel of writing this straight after i woke up..

dunno what is wrong with my brain..

dreamt of you thrice, erm all different dreams..

and each dream i woke up once,

and when i slept back i will dream of you again..

and each time i woke up, i got the urge of texting you that 3 words..

But too bad..i cant, its impossible for me to do that..

2:18 AM

Wednesday, October 7, 2009, 10:00 PM

" I don't have to be your first love, but i do want to be your true one "

Tuesday, October 6, 2009, 9:00 PM

" TWO IS ALWAYS BETTER DEN ONE "

3:17 PM

TRUST ME!!

TRUST ME PLEASE...
I WONT LET WATEVER YOU'VE BEEN THRU HAPPEN TO YOU AGAIN..
YOU'RE THE ONE I＇VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG IN MY LIFE!!
HAVE CONFIDENT IN THIS..
TRUST ME, YOU WONT REGRET.. €=
I WILL KEEP THIS FOREVER!!
I WONT LET IT BE GONE..
PLEASE!!

1:32 AM

you've already got me coming undone..

I wonder will i have the chances??

Chance to take care of you for the rest of my life..
Chance to prove to you that what you've being looking for is actually here by your side, always..
Chance to build all the dreams you ever wanted together..
Chance to give you a sense of security that you hope for..
Chance to hold your hand and never let go..
Chance to give you a shoulder to cry on and a warm hug when you're sad..
Chance to wipe away your tears with all my lame jokes..
Chance to give you a very good pair of listening ears to hear all your complains..
Chance to cuddles you in my arms to watch sunset and sunrise together always..
Chance to make you believe in me..
Chance to not hurt your heart but make it stronger everyday..
Chance to make you fall in love everyday..
Chance to make you smile like you always have, but brighter and sweeter..
Chance to never let you be alone, never ever..
Chance to understand you more and more..
Chance to give you late nights..
Chance to plant a goodnight kiss while you're asleep..
Chance to lock you in my heart forever..
MORE IMPORTANTLY A CHANCE TO WRITE A LOVE STORY OF OUR OWN..

All i need now is a chance, just a chance to start and accomplished all these chances with you one by one..
even if the chance you give is gonna be 0.00000000000000000000001%, i will never fail you..
All these are from the bottom of my heart..

How i wish you will visit my blog and read every post that i have posted for you..
But will you have the patient and the time and the heart to read every of it??
How i wish that my sincerity will make you realise I'm sincere..
HOW I WISH YOU COULD ACCEPT ME TO BE PART OF YOU..
well wishes are wishes, but every night i will pray for it to come true..
I HOPE SOMEDAY THAT ALL MY WISHES WILL COME TRUE..

I hope, I wish and i pray that someday you will text me a simple msg and say, i do =#..

1:05 AM

Monday, October 5, 2009, 8:56 PM

HAIZ...
I SUDDENLY FEEL DAM SCARE, REALLY DAM SCARE..
IM TOO AFRAID TO LET IT ALL OUT..
IM SCARE THAT THIS IS ONLY A DREAM, IF IT IS I REALLY DUNN WAN IT TO STOP!!
IM AFRAID THAT WHEN IM AWAKE, EVERYTHING WILL BE GONE!!
AND I DUNN WAN ALL THIS TO HAPPEN!!
ITS LIKE A PHOBIA TO ME NOW!!

6:21 PM

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
Cause You're My Everything

5:37 PM

" I knew what love was supposed to be: obsession with undertones of nausea"

" 愛是不是不開口才珍貴 "

2:11 AM

AGAIN!!!

1:11 AM

AHHHHH!!! OMG!!
I REALISE MY FEELING FOR YOU HAS BECOME EVEN DEEPER!!

12:45 AM

Haiz..i found a letter accidentally which was send from my aunt from msia to my dad..
after reading the three pages long letter,
i found out theres smth happening between my aunt and my grandma..
lasted for fucking 3 mths,
that time i went back and they still acted like nth happen..
i dunn wish all these to happen, i wan all of it to stop!!
so much of a happy family,
in the end, its all...................... haiz..

Sunday, October 4, 2009, 3:18 PM

2:59 AM

No more arguing please!! haiz..

it really hurts..haiz..

2:18 AM

2:11 AM

" And I hope that someday we could talk and forget that time ever drew distance between us. We could make a bridge out of words, as fragile as it might be, the awkward pauses and incomprehensible mumbling, twisting, and twining into some stronger foothold. Someday, I might reach you and redeem myself. But I wouldn’t count on it anytime soon "

I wish, i hope and i pray.. =[

Friday, October 2, 2009, 11:49 PM

this is cool..

1:53 PM

" I just want to get inside your head, so I can see how you feel about me. It’s all I wonder about lately. All I want to know is what you see "

1:49 AM

" I wish I could give you what you’re looking for, but I don’t know what it is. There’s a part of you that you keep closed off from everyone, including me. It’s as if your mind is on someone else "

Thursday, October 1, 2009, 1:55 PM

I want you to know that I love you. I never did stop, not for one gasping second. My love for you is unconditional, and it will never end as long as I live. I refuse to find another when I have the one I want. I never doubted us, but you did. I never stopped thinking about you, even though you stopped thinking about me. I never wanted to let go, but you did "

1:06 AM

" Sometimes there is nothing to be said. Sometimes nothing should be said. You just want to find someone who won’t run away. Someone to look you in the eyes and tell you it’s okay that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy. Today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better "

" When the world is not enough, come back to me. When your dreams have lost their touch, come back to me. When you’re tired of chasing rainbows, that never do end and nothing in this world is good enough, just come back to me again "

12:16 AM

Cheer Up..
Be strong.. You can do it..

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Name:K.T
Age:20
Created:030289
School:NYP

More About Me
Dum Dee Dum
I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman
I am going to save the world
like as if you would believe
I am a maniac
I came from an outer space which is filled with water
I learn swimming at the age of zero
I wail like a cry baby
I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman
I live in wonderland
Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan

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what i want?
[ ] nikon d300
[ ] bigger crumpler bag
[ ] new phone
[ ] desktop
[ ] shoes
[ ] clothes
[ ] More Money

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All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

It official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you

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